I’ve always been someone to ask the bigger questions. I want to know why. Why this, why that, and how is it possible I’m sitting here on a giant spinning ball? Why, why, WHY. By this point in my life I was thirty-four and although I felt I was ‘following my path’ I knew in my heart something was missing.
The truth is, I was not happy. I felt as if I were stuck on pause. Waiting for the real stuff to start. Perhaps you can relate. It was a yearning for more along with an unwillingness to settle for just so. I knew I wanted BIG things. I wanted JOY. I wanted purpose. PASSION! I wanted peace. Mostly, I wanted to Show Up Fully for myself and for those around me but I wasn’t clear on what I should do to get there. I tried the best I could to follow my inner-guide yet it wasn’t until I had what felt like a series of catastrophic personal events following my intention experiment that I would really get shaken up and shaken free.
My first breakthrough happened about six months before my experiment. I had stumbled – and I say stumbled because I literally remember thinking this book is going to make a difference in my life – onto Dr. Wayne Dyer’s The Power of Intention while browsing Barnes & Noble one afternoon. And oh my goodness did this book resonate with me. The way he explained intent as this all-pervasive divine source running through everything and everyone spoke to my heart. That we are all unique expressions of its light. That all physical manifestations begin as a thought and those that stick around and inspire delight are in need of full expression. I couldn’t look at the world the same again. Things were no longer things but the genius and intent of humans. My how crafty we were!
I became fascinated with how intention as he expressed it could specifically relate to one’s personal environment. If we are to activate this guiding source within and give it full expression, what would happen if we applied it to a specific space, namely our home, where we spend most of our time. I wanted to take the power of intention to the second power. As a Professional Organizer, I already knew how life changing it was to declutter and transform one’s environment; so what would happen if we beautified and re-energized our spaces not only because we trusted it was good for us, but because we knew what we wanted to experience as a result of our efforts. It was about being clear on how we wanted to show up and what we wanted to experience in the process.
So I went off with the intention to experience what I felt was missing in my own life while living in my new, very tiny home. The way the owners explained it to me was that living there would be comparable to living on a small yacht. With a yard. And without the mention of a yappy dog. At the time, it sounded very appealing and like the perfect location for my experiment. I was going to fall in love! On my yacht! Who knew how fast I’d want to jump ship.
I don’t really have words to express the way in which my life has transformed since that day I put pen to paper and asked for more. My life would never be the same and I was off, and continue to be off, on the journey of a lifetime. I know from the depths of my being that had I not intended AND committed fully for things to change, they likely wouldn’t have. I was serious about my request and was ready and willing to do the work necessary to uplevel my life if this meant facing the good, the bad, the ugly, the confusing, the beautiful, the magnificent, the mundane, and the entire range of emotions and experiences that define what it is to be human. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.